Day 4: And I was doing so well.
Seriously, I was totally on target. And then this. I am not even going to run the numbers today. They’re all in the red by pretty huge amounts. I’m over in all the wrong categories.
And I had sugar. I lost my mind at some point around 11PM and devoured several pieces of marzipan candy–I don’t even like marzipan. I didn’t enjoy it either. It was too sweet and it was nasty, but pretty much from 10PM on, I felt like I was under a compulsion.
Breakfast: Instant oatmeal (plain, no sugar added) mixed up with 1 tsp of Chinese Five Spice Powder, a tbsp of raisins, 1/4 cup of almonds, and hot water. Coffee and my multivitamin.
Lunch: Leftovers from dinner: two slices of pizza with some homemade marinara, fresh mozzarella, fresh mushrooms, and basil, about 2 cups of lettuce, tomatoes, and radishes, and 1 tbsp of Annie’s Organic Lemon Chive dressing.
Snacks: microwave popcorn (just popcorn, nothing added) and 2 Clementines.
Dinner: 1/4 cup dry of brown rice, chicken stir fry with carrots, mushrooms, sugar snap peas, orange pepper strips, scallions, ginger, and garlic.
Binge-eating session from hell: 3/4 cups of cashews, multiple pieces of marzipan
Up until the binge-eating session, I was doing fine. I meticulously measured out enough for 2 portions of stir fry. I weighed things. I divided in half and I entered each ingredient. And before I lost my mind and self-control, I would have been under for everything but fat, and even then only by a tiny bit.
But it’s done and there’s no more candy in the house. If I have learned anything from years of trying to practice good nutrition it is that you just have to square your shoulders and decide you will do better the next day.